Mr.Booze & I ,we finally divorced!
I got DIVORCED!
It has been 8 mos Nov 2016 since I decided to hang up my drinking glass. and Mr. Booze and I just did not see eye to eye anymore. I gave that cork my walking papers for GOOD!
EXCEPT for my Bday, I began to be a little sentimental , going down memory lane- I called up grand mariner and his cousin cognac but left my mother in law WINE on the shelf!
That night , I had a special bday drink list I created. I refused to drink anything other then what was on MY list that I carefully googled. Bartenders looked at me odd.
I did not care, suck it up, it`s my list.
There I was, in the middle of shots and drinks being offered to me left and right. I took them up on the offer, but it had to come from MY list of drinks. NO exceptions. So, I drank up.
My night ended at 4 am- with me at the third bar of the night.
I sang karaoke , still somewhat sober, but def a buzz. I watched my self in the stages and watched ppl around me. It was interesting to witness from this stand point. People were getting LOUDER and louder talking shit. The room actually looked like a BUNCH OF LOST SOULS with me being right smack in the middle of it all.
I was worried if I just threw out my 7 mos of no drinking.
4 am at the bar, ready to go home and then the late night prowlers looking for scraps. Business men and young quick talking boys.
STILL looking for somewhere to go.. I laughed shaking my head reminding them, it is 4 am.
The next day I woke up with a headache and the taste of alcohol.
I looked in the mirror and sat with my self. Fuck, I HATE this feeling. My head is cloudy, I don`t FEEL energized.
I snapped out of it, had breakfast, got my workout on and vowed to not go back to putting that crap in my body. For what- For this! You can have it.
UNTIL — —
3 weeks later- feeling like I want to TREAT my self, I had the urge for some RUM. Rum doesn`t seem so bad..right
So, I stop into the lounge pulled up a stool and told the bartender to SURPRISE me, give me a drink with some RUM.
He gave me a drink with some coconut rum. Hmm, good!
And then once again I started to look around the room. It was early in the evening. There were three people at the bar all staring at their phone. ZOMBIES!
I sipped on my drink shooting the shit with the bartender. He was getting his flirt on with me , pouring me another drink on the house.
Now, I was not so sure I made the right decision. I am right back in the same shit hole box feeling reason for living.
And for what- why was I there- seriously- why.
I paid for my drink and walked home. I love this NEW relationship I have with my self today. I am ON POINT, I wake up ready to rock n roll and I am present.
Drinking is def a thing of the past for me. I attempted to go back a couple of times , but booze and I , when we called it quits, we really called it quits. I divorced booze 8 mos ago. It was a great realtionship at times but the way it made me feel after was not worth it. Was robbing me of my VITALITY, my HEALTH my Peace of Mind.
Started dating Water and man , does water really GET Me. I wake up everyday feeling energized FOCUSED with CLARITY. Not only that, Water has a bunch of friends that we have SO MUCH FUN with- Orange Juice makes me dance. When Tonic Water and OJ get together it is a party in my mouth. I really love this new relationship. Really takes care of me. This new love is full of comfort and nourishment. I CANNOT WAIT TO START MY DAY FULL OF LIFE! Today, I run into the arms of my Water! Water really loves me and .. I really love my water. Like a match made in heaven!
Sorry Booze man, we had a good time but things change and we are no longer compatible. We tried to rekindle things , but I don`t feel the same anymore. I know you will be ok, there are tons of woman out there that will love to rendevous with you that have not figured out your long term plan.
Thanks for the ride Booze man, Mr.Water is waiting for me, this is my LAST stop, I am getting off.
Take Care,
G
( The moral of this story is that WAS A RELATIONSHIP. One that started way before the age of 21. Evolving, Emerging , Growing into new territories of life means that some relationships are no longer required. Health is number 1 and when something ALTERS that STATE of Mind, Body and Spirit, it is time to move on.)