The feeling of knowing with absolute certainty. I don’t know anything, I’m so confused it’s made me physically ill. For months I think this man I met is a narcissist. That, or one of the greatest souls to ever live and have no feelings. Emotions ? I don’t know if he has any. For seven months my ‘friend’ has dragged me through so much pain.
I love the concept of controlling ones thoughts. Being rational, knowing when you let your thoughts control how you feel. I get it. Everything is thought. So why is it so hard to just move on? Think of something else, not the year relationship and it’s oddities. I knew all along he didn’t care about me, but I kept seeing him(only at his request) HELLO, this is not me.