Extra Courage (65/100)

2015. Bushwick, Brooklyn, NY

T told me to listen to rat music the whole day to get myself in that cocky, overconfident mental state. She also suggested that I down 2 shots of whisky before I head over for that guaranteed sense of self-importance. I followed her directions, and even added a quarter bottle of soju to the mix, just to get some extra courage.

“You’re the shit. You’re the shit. You’re the absolute best. Of course you can do this.”

I later learned that having a bloated ego made it even more difficult to swallow a rejection.