My first 500words challenge — Job hunting crisis
It’s 3am and I could not sleep. I have so much to think and I thought of 500 words challenge in Medium. It such a long time I haven’t write anything, even in my own language except some simple non-sense status on Facebook or Instagram description. I mean deep, emotional and meaningful writing. I feel like if I wasn’t get up and write something, my brain would explode of that much stress and thoughts I have. Some of them are crazy.
I am in the middle of job hunting crisis. I graduated from my master not long ago, 2 months after my 24 birthday. I am from a country in South East Asia and I am living in the UK, 3 weeks left due to my visa to be exactly. I am not from a poor background and my brain is good enough to get me a job back home. I dont need to stay here desperately but I just want to.
I have a British boyfriend. He is tall, skinny and has a brownie chestnut curly hair that he claimed never be washed. That’s too extreme but he rarely washes it, one every 3 months maybe. He wears flipflop everyday, 365 days a year even in snow. I don’t understand why and have no intention to change it. That doesnt make me love him any less.
Yes. He is a main part of the reason makes me want to stay here, in Britain. The other one is my self-esteem (if it is the right word), believing myself is good enough to find a job in another language, to challenge myself to live in a totally foreign place that differs from my home country from weather to culture. Because I want a job, I put all my effort into it. I have 3 version of my CV, 2 video CV and 2 website. I want things to be perfect, I want people see me at my best self and capabilities of doing challenging things. I applied to a lot of vacancies online, received a good amount of call back but non of them work out to an interview. I don't stop trying, I printed them out and brought my CV to the company I want in person. I used all the network I have to find one. The clock is ticking and no good signal anywhere. If they told me I wasn't good enough or suitable for the role will make me feel so much better than the fact of hearing about my sponsored visa put them off. One was ready to interview me and the other one wasn’t up for sponsoring. A few agencies rang me up and had such a lovely chat with me but they will only just…considering about my work permit. How frustrated!
Then, I was thinking of giving up…Maybe not yet, I wonder how long I can hold on to hope and love. Wish one company out there lucky enough to find me, give me a favour look at the works I have done for a minute then I probably will do a big thing for them in the future. Who knows! #staypositive
