How do people all over the world have their life together but nothing can ever go my way? I don’t even know what I want for dinner tonight, let alone what I want to be when I grow up.
I see people everywhere who make life seem so easy. They make it seem like you can just glide through with a smile on your face. Well let me tell you, I definitely can’t. I spill coffee on myself at least three times a day on my way to class, I cry over everything and anything, I’m an awful test taker and stress over every little thing, I over think, way more than anyone should, and I suck at making commitments (i.e. working out, not relationships).
On another note, I get so frustrated when people ask me what I want to be. Because right now, I don’t even know. Just one year ago I thought I was going to be a trauma surgeon. Now i’m majoring in education, but I don’t even know if I want to still do that. I bounce from idea to idea when it comes to my future. The reason is, is because I don’t want to hate my life when I go to work. I want to love my job. So many people are in it just for the money, but I want to make a difference, no matter how cliche or cheesy that sounds, it’s true! I love helping animals and children, but I don’t want to be a forever student, and I suck at science, so being a vet & all that is out. I don’t want to be in school for 8+ years. I want to help the world now, I want to make a difference now, not later.
Any who, this blog is completely messy, but I guess that how life is, messy. Enjoy! xoxo