alone.
i sit in my bed as these thoughts come into my head.
im alone.
nobody is there to reassure me that everything is okay. not a single word.
nobody to lean on their shoulder. nobody to get a hug.
i rest my head on my pillow thinking about what tomorrow brings and i realize that i have lost almost everybody and anybody.
i wish i fit in.
i wish i was funny.
i wish i was wanted anytime i walked into a room.
i wish id be the one to get the message first; it’s always nice when you’re not the one messaging first.
i wish somebody would say,
“hey just thinking about you!”
just out of the blue and saying,
“i miss you.”
nobody ever misses me.
im just a girl who feels alone.
nobody talks to me anymore…
and yes people do talk…
… but it’s usually the small talk.
im broken.
scared.
lonely.
i want to be happy.
will this feeling ever stop?
11/4/2019