Getting Through the Days
There are so many days that I don’t want to do anything. Lying in bed all day, eating junk food and binge watching Netflix sounds like the absolute perfect day. To a normal college student, that can actually be an option to them at times. But for me, that will probably always sound like a fantastic idea, but won’t ever happen.
I am 23, a mom, a wife and a full time college senior. I’m always tired, always busy and always wishing I could just sit and relax. There are days when I think I can sit on my couch and watch TV, but then I’m interrupted by reality and a 10 month old trying to climb up my leg.
Like I said, I’m always busy. The laundry is never-ending, truly. I’m always washing and folding and washing and folding. I will clean the kitchen spotless, put all the dishes either away or in the dishwasher and move on to something else. Five minutes later, there are dishes stacked up in the sink, food all over the counters and trash overflowing in the trashcan.
My daughter’s toys are all over the place, all the time. They are scattered out on the living room floor, in my bedroom, in her room and even in my car. And I am constantly finding a sock in the most random places. Not a pair of socks, just one sock.
My husband works crazy hours and is always exhausted when he gets home. I am constantly finding his clothes in the middle of the living room floor or by the kitchen table where he puts his lunchbox and keys. The worst part, he chews tobacco, so spit bottles are everywhere; gross right?
Before I became a mom and a wife, I never thought about how crazy life would be when I wasn’t just a college kid, or “adult” for that matter. Well let me just say, it’s ridiculous. So how do I get through the days?
Lets talk about school for a moment. This is my fifth year in college and I’m in my last semester, thank the good lord. I am juggling 20 credit hours, an internship and a family. Graduating has always been a goal of mine and I haven’t let anything get in the way of that.
It would be so easy to quit. It would be so easy to not complete my homework and go to sleep before midnight for once instead. When I started college, I wanted to earn a degree so I could get a good job and have a good life. The average college kid’s dream, right?
Four years later, I have so much more reason to earn my degree. I have the most beautiful little girl, who doesn’t know it yet, but will look up to me one day and hopefully thank me for working my hardest to give her the life she deserves.
I have a husband who works two day shifts and two night shifts an hour away so he can support his wife and daughter. He is filthy when he comes home, can barely keep his eyes open, and he watches our daughter while I go to class all day.
The messes my husband makes drive me insane. The homework sets me over the edge a lot of the time. The late nights rocking my daughter to sleep makes me even more exhausted. But all of those things give me a need to keep going.
Everything that I complained about aren’t bad things. They get me through the days somehow. They keep me busy; they make me a good mom and a good wife. I am blessed to have all this craziness in my life.
