The young man had already injured himself a lot. His mind was full of thoughts — not that there was focus on even one of them; they just went on in the mind without any intentions of stopping. With extremely frequent checking of social media and whatsapp content, he had lost the balance he once carried — he even lost the feeling of that balance he once carried, from his memory — and thus he did not even have a point of return that he coud set as a benchmark/goal to reach. By constantly looking into the lives of others, some who he knew just be name, he had already used up several GBs andTBs of his brain’s HDD.

He had heard a lot about having a higher goal, even read a lot about it, even tried. In fact, he is still trying and has progressed to an extent. However, this checking of social media feeds and whatsapp chats has taken him far from what he is. This is what he realized today. One positive about this realization (other than the relization itself) was that he got to understand his belief system better — how he was empty within and always of the belief that somebody/some people outside would be able to fill him. Till now, this illusion of happiness (on seeing other people’s lives on social media) had only given him an experience of sorrow and more emptiness. Yet, like an ant sticks to a sugar cube, he stuck his eyes on the news feed even after turning off the lights to sleep. The ant remained stuck and died. He knew he didn’t want to die the same way each time he kept down his phone and tried to sleep.