Hi Yoga.. Pleasure to meet you!
Pleasure it has been, no doubt. In just two classes practicing, I am certain about making Yoga an integral part of my life. I bet it has a ton to do with my instructor. It’s as if she knows exactly what to say when we practice. She instructs me on my posture and my breath, but quickly brings me back to my thoughts. I can’t stress enough on the difference this has made.
Focus is about knowing clearly what you would like to do and then, just doing it… Without thought.
I was trying a balancing pose today. I have tried it before and I have failed miserably. Today as I was trying it, she asked me to observe my thoughts — am I being kind or harsh to myself? When I did that, I wondered why I was thinking at all. Why wasn’t I just balancing? The second I realized there was no thought required, voila, there I was — standing on one leg, centered, calm and breathing… Deep. It was in that I moment that I truly understood what it meant to be focused. Focus is about knowing clearly what you would like to do and then, just doing it… Without thought.
As my mind relaxed, my body swung to action.
At one point during practice, I observed my hand shivering. My instructor asked me to not push myself. She asked me to breathe and let my body take over, let the breath push me into the right pose without the mind stressing over it. It was amazing how I reacted to this instruction. With every breath, my body would stretch more. With every breath, it would get easier. As my mind relaxed, my body swung to action. So unexpected.
I won’t push it. I’ll just trust myself to do it.
Before every class, my instructor asks me to think about my intention for being there. To make a resolve before starting. I don’t have a clear intention. I have many thoughts, many expectations. But no one clear intention. I want Yoga to help me calm down, have better health, learn to focus more, be more aware, stay centered, be un fazed. It seems that I want a lot of things. But if I have taken away one lesson from these two classes, it is that I cannot be one thing and I cannot be all of them. I am what I am. I need to relax and let my body and my mind figure it out over time. I won’t push it. I’ll just trust myself to do it.