Reading in my notes app every day:
“Buy pregnancy test”
Not doing it.
Thinking about it
All the time
Texting friends, and the father-to-be
Going about life with a troubled look on my face
A woman possessed with a dark secret.
Increased hunger, foggy head, slightly-larger-than-usual stomach, tiredness
Clear signs that I must be pregnant.

Googling:
“Is abortion free in Denmark”
(Yes.)

Buying groceries
Looking at the pregnancy tests hanging by the cashier
Not buying them.
Not scared of judgement in the supermarket
But the price.
I can wait a few more days.

Spending what I would have done on…

Often an undervalued part of the drinking journey, the hangover can actually be conductive to inner peace.

Four years ago I was going through a troubled time. I’d entirely lost my sense of self, worth and love. And my mum gave me a book — The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. One night, inspired by this book, I experienced incredible presence— a timeless trancelike state. It was and still is the most amazing feeling I’ve ever had.

Recently I rummaged through my boxes in my dad’s attic, and reopened that book, because I feel like I’ve lost a lot…

H.E.

Rants about things I feel and experience. Truth, with a sprinkling of fiction (for those who believe in the truth of fiction and the fiction in truth).

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