I am on the final end of a massive time of celebration and events for our son’s graduation. It was a wonderful time and we’re so very proud of him, but I am SO done and thrilled we’re on the other side of everything.
I have learned in recovery that it’s always a good time to pay attention when you are ready to throw in the towel when you are HUNGRY, ANGRY, LONELY or TIRED… I have been a combination of all of these in the past four days and coming home tonight after a full day and a night of very little sleep all I wanted to do was binge.
I know that this amount of overwhelm and social hangover is me at my weakest and least wise — so halting was crucial. I stopped, breathed and decided that nothing was happening except me just saying goodnight, writing and heading to bed. Anything else would end me in a place I don’t want to be. Life will be new again tomorrow.