In Anticipation of My First Suspension
I assume most individuals would be nervous at this point, being only three days before my first flesh suspension. I’ll be committing myself to a four-point suicide posture. I’ve been thinking about this for a very long time. I’ve been anticipating this for years. I’ve missed several opportunities to hang from hooks. I’m glad I’m now able to do so, thanks to my friend Sam who is also suspending that night (Friday, February 20th, 2015). She’s offered to give me a ride from where we live in Buffalo all the way to Maryland. It’ll be quite the trip.
Now, why am I suspending? This is spiritual fro me. I am a member of the Church of Body Modification, though not very active therein these days, where I once was. This is also about who I am, about being in control of my own body, and of connecting with the divine. Lastly, this is a suicide position suspension. I am electing for that because when I was seventeen I attempted suicide and spent several weeks in the hospital. This is the killing of the self for me. The elimination — nay, the suicide of the old ways of self-destruction and harm.
That being said, it might not surprise you to say that I plan for my second suspension to be in the position commonly known as “resurrection”.
I plan on writing much more after my trip.