Fake till you make it
The title doesn’t give the whole idea of this post though.. but close enough.
Live your life, not theirs
When you don’t have plan, you fit perfectly to everyone else’s plan which tricks you to think that you are important to them, you are important to their plans but not them, they just wanna use them for their plans because you don’t have plan for yourself. So you are the best person to be used to fulfill their planned tasks. Start making a plan now and get yourself out of those invisible handcuff.
Live your life, not theirs.
I was scrolling down my Facebook newsfeed, I came across my high school junior’s status which made me think of what is really happening here within me. I am always adapting (if you are following me, you would know). Apparently, I’m not living my life the way I wanted just because I am always adapting.
No wonder I am not really happy, but I love making others happy. I just felt empty inside when I followed other people’s plan. I am the type who could go out of my way for those people I value. However, I like it better going out alone because I feel like I’m fully in charged of my own journey. Still in awed of how much time have I used or wasted not living my life.
It is not like I don’t plan you see, I am always planning but this high level of tolerance and thoughtfulness which also makes me look like lalang or I was even called fake.
Open letter to people who is sur-Real.
Fake? I was called that not just once, twice or trice I thought it was okay because maybe you particularly just don’t see the way I see things but now fudge, I don’t give a shit anymore. I avoid dramas, I know my time is precious and I am not going to waste it on unimportant things. I’m not going to respond to whatever people is throwing at me.
Being nice to someone you dislike doesn’t mean you’re fake, it means you’re mature enough to tolerate your dislikes towards them.
You disliking others is not my problem but I could consider making sure you won’t bump into the people you disliked. There are always two sides to every story. I’m not saying that I don’t care, I will lend you my ears; if you’re right I would fight for you but if you’re not, just stop.. don’t make stupid dramas, please. So, I won’t be affected until I have done my homework, not until I understand the situation. Let’s discuss ideas and solutions.
I never begged you to dislike the same person as I dislike either. I find that awkward, darling.
Just got back from Riyadul Jannah Mosque for Taraweeh prayer. Alhamdulillah, I’m feeling energised. Positive vibes for tomorrow, it’s first Ramadhan! Happy Ramadhan to Muslim brothers and sisters.
Now I know what’s the problem of my planning. It is all because I did not stick to it. I have to stick with what I have planned. This time I’ll be fierce. Rawr!