5. Taking out the fear of starting
I don’t know what I’m doing in a Programming crash course with people who are way smarter than me and can think of better code solutions than I can. When your classmates code good looking professional websites in only half the time you can barely hold up a template, you’d be devastated too. I’m competitive, that’s all I can say.
It’s the last leg of the course, and all we have to do is finish with a final project. It has to be something to cap off everything we learned — and more! More means it’s up to each and everyone of us to design and think how they (our admins and teachers) will be wowed away.
I haven’t started mine. I tell myself I’m researching, but let’s be honest here: I’m scared. What if I work on my little project, only to find out someone else made it better? Or what if I do it, pour my heart and soul to it, only for it to come with bad reviews and no one likes it?
Bad things will probably happen anyway. My favorite blogger even said, “you will fail.” Thank you Seth Godin.
“Then so what?” Thank you SG again. It takes a lot of failures to find the right one. It takes many years to build an overnight success.
I want this final project to be something useful. I don’t want it to be just another mock up which no one will ever use. I want to know there are people there that I’m helping — that’s the real reason I enrolled in this course. I even took an unpaid leave off work while I pursue 8–5 class each day of coding.
But all these wants and should, they are pulling me back. I guess the only real way to stop the voices in your head saying you can’t do it is when you start doing it. That’s why I have to start, or I won’t forgive myself for not atleast trying.
