Dropping the pills

Mr Bliss
Mr Bliss
Aug 27, 2017 · 3 min read
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Since the age of 14 until I was 35, I was on a nearly continuous set of anti-anxiety, anti-depressants, mood stabilizers, sleep medicines, stomach medicines and pain meds. It was a dizzying (literally) mix of advanced medicines that sometimes provided temporary relief from the vicious anxiety, back pain, depression, sleeplessness, hyperhidrosis that ravaged my life since early childhood. Most of the time I was on atleast 3 different meds to stabilize my mood. Sometimes as high as 5. Unfortunately, the meds basically chemically castrated me on a physical, emotional, and sexual level.

Here’s a partial list of the medicines I was on:

- alpralozam

- nexium

- prilosec

- codeine

- klonapin

- riddelin

- trazodone

- paxil

- wellbutrin

My job was in protecting federal supercomputer centers from attack. I flew out to sites and designed systems to detect intrusion at various levels of classification. Remember, this was in the 2000s, when very few people recognized the seriousness of the threat.

At some point in 2009, everything crashed. The delicate balance of pharmaceuticals, relationships, bottle of wine a night, 2 packs of cigarettes, and 80 hour weeks gave way. It was like a symphony of chaos that had worked for a long while but was now breaking me apart.

Right the bells that still can ring

Forget your perfect offering

There is a crack in everything

That’s what let’s the light shine through

- Leonard Cohen

Damn, I never wanted to see the crack. I thought that was the beginning of the worst. But in fact, it was the beginning of the best. My own hero’s journey started in that moment.

For pretty much my whole life I was living in an unmindful, disconnected way. Nothing grounded me or connected me to the reality of my body and my humanity. I continually sought ways to avoid. I found all the legal ways to avoid myself. The pharmaceuticals, alcohol, sex, work, etc.

People admired me for the crazy long hours, money, and relationships I had. So I thought I had it all…

But I felt totally empty inside. I had zero connection with any part of my body outside of my brain and my penis.

The constant amount of stimulation and excitement was no longer providing joy. It felt like I was squeezing a rock for water.

If you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always gotten.

Over the course of the last 8 years, I’ve spent tens of thousands of dollars in a variety of treatment modalities ranging from the neuroscientific to the shamanic in order to find relaxation, peace, and clarity.

Here are some of the things that I tried… Only some of them worked…

- Shamanic breathing techniques

- Cognitive behavioral therapy

- Herbal remedies

- Himalayan breathing techniques

- Tension release techniques

- Psoas release

- Past life regressions

- Craniosacral Therapy

- Shadow work

- Carpet work

- Binaural beats

- Visualization

- Detoxification

- Pineal decalcification

- Advanced kinesiology

- Balinease herbal remedies

- Peruvian practices

- Energy work and dowsing

It’s been a tough journey but I’m super happy to report that I’m now free from prescriptions. I have never had a better life.

Now apart from working in cybersecurity, I teach people how to achieve peace and bliss.

There is nothing that makes me happier than to see a client go from stressed to deeply, zen like relaxed.

If any of this resonated with you and you’d like a free 20 minute coaching session, email me at heymrbliss@gmail.com. I’d love to share a collection of techniques that have positively transformed my life.

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