being the one to make the first move (poem)
i’m looking at you all disappointed-like
because why didn’t you take the hint when i
reached my hand out across the table
and left it half a centimeter from yours
the meat of both my palms lying face up like
i was obviously beckoning for something
i wanted you to take the hint.
but then you leaned back and crossed your arms
and i knew i had lost the chance
to grab your hands
it would have been nice if you had
just took the hint.
… but you didn’t and i wish you could read my mind sometimes
or take some risks sometimes
or reach harder for what you want
if you really wanted it
sometimes
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i realize this is only a reflection of what i wish
i myself am capable of doing
capable of not wishing at 11:11 or being lucky
and nevertheless being able to hold your hand
i hate letting myself down
and i tried to convince myself that i hadn’t because
you were supposed to do it
but then i remember when i fancied myself as a
woman who would jumps to the gun first
i want to be the one who takes the initiative
that’s how i want to be (am right now…)
i’ll let me be it (make sure to look forward to it)
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