H. Nemesis Nyx
Aug 26, 2017 · 1 min read

No, you were right. I was saying that, but I realized how stupid that is now.

That makes no sense and also fuck them who cares what we look like to them? My whole thing here was all about fuck that shit we are who we are and fuck what they think and then to you a few days later I was all:

“…because we will look crazy…”

I can totally see how that’s a problematic perspective. I can see how that was misguided and I think I may have triggered myself with it even.

Fucking hell.

This shit is complicated sometimes. I was all, “Imma project manage the shit out of this oppression business, watch me, watch me, ooo ooo ooo.”

I didn’t stop to consider that’s not how this works and its not really possible. Tunnel vision. I want to fix it all. Make all the pain go away.

I know I can’t. But every now and again I get to fooling myself.

This whole piece was me judging myself. When I used ‘we’ I was talking about my alter ego and the mouse in my pocket. Seriously. When Charlottesville happened I became furious with myself about how engaged I was with fgbro.

I still think he’s a fucking troll. I still wish he didn’t have grounds for a lawsuit. He shouldn’t get paid for having these fucked up opinions. I blame myself for allowing him that.

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