I see… So it’s a “trigger word” for you… Therefore you get to… No.

This is why I Block

This is why I started blocking in the very first place.

My dear, you have said nothing wrong.

I read through the drivel being lobbed at you and the only conclusion I can come to is that this person you are speaking with is a sad, pathetic person who is not very good at dealing with ‘life.’

See, when garbage comes out it isn’t because garbage went in through eyes watching a screen. Garbage comes out because garbage is over-flowing before the eyes met the screen in the very first place. Do you have PTSD?

Honey, I don’t know.

What I DO know is that women who have been raped are at an especially high risk for PTSD as a result. 10 in a 100 women will experience PTSD in their lifetime. Women are at a higher risk of developing PTSD than men because:

  • Women are more likely to experience sexual assault.
  • Sexual assault is more likely to cause PTSD than many other events.
  • Women may be more likely to blame themselves for trauma experiences than men.

What I also know, is that I am not a big fan of using the word ‘trigger’ unless we are talking about it in the medical sense. That said, the way you described how you felt, your poem and what happened right prior to your writing that poem, sure sounds like a ‘trigger’ in the medical sense to me.

I am not a doctor.

I am a woman. I am a sexual trauma victim. I survived a childhood that was simply neglectful on the best days. I am severely disabled according to the way our government defines the term. Because, I have severe Complex PTSD — except that’s not what it is called anymore in the DSM. It is now referred to as ‘Stockholm Type PTSD.’

Again, I am not a doctor.

I did not diagnose myself. I was evaluated by a therapist, my primary care physician and a psychiatrist in 2012 when I was officially diagnosed. All three agreed. I have been in treatment ever since. I am lucky. I have a job that lets me work out of my home, so I also work full time and am gainfully employed.

Those who evaluated me said that I likely have been surviving with this condition from a very young age. It is not uncommon for women to go undiagnosed, because contrary to the bullshit the dillhole is trying to sell you, women are LESS likely to go to the fucking doctor to get evaluated because we don’t want to seem ‘weak’ and ‘indulging ourselves’ when we have people to take care of counting on us.

Does that sound familiar?

I don’t know. I am not a doctor. But doctor or no, when I looked at this thread from a different account where I could see what was coming at you, it was very clear to me there was a whole lotta projection coming at you.

Go to the doctor, TeriJo. You are at a higher risk. You can’t be too careful about it because it can in fact kill you. When we avoid things that bring up nightmares that were lived in our waking hours, such as someone we haven’t seen for a very long time, we become raw where our trauma lies in wait. When the traumatic memory bumps against the person, place or thing we have been avoiding, trapped energy is released at an alarming rate.

It can feel as many different ways as there are different brains. It can most certainly feel the way you described. Time to get it checked out.

And TeriJo, I don’t really give a fuck if you said something “wrong” or not (you didn’t, but just so we are clear), you didn’t deserve the dumpster fire laid at your feet, there was no reason for it and fuck that guy in the ear hole.

Also, YOU are infinitely more important to me than a stupid word could ever hope to be.