This makes me feel so happy for you. This is such a big deal. You deserve to feel proud of yourself. Thank you for writing this whole piece, but especially for giving love to yourself in such an open and fearless way. It helps to witness.
This also makes me feel hopeful. One day I might also feel this way about myself, despite my PTSD. On my good days it seems unlikely that I will be able to come through for myself as you have for yourself and on the bad days it is impossible. It might have been unimaginable for me until just now.
In my mind you have much for which to be proud of yourself. From there, you’ve sent a powerful message and I am grateful.