forgive yourself
When You Can’t Help It
Michael Adewunmi
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You know something?

This is the thing for me. When I am coming off a bad flashback or disassociative episode, I push everyone away. Everyone. I do it not to punish them, but to protect them from me.

Yeah. I know. It doesn’t help.

Isolation makes it worse. But I can’t make myself feel like I deserve to be forgiven for not being able to over-power my brain health problem. So many times I feel this intense fear that I am unacceptable because of it and this causes me to relentlessly bash myself.

I have started to reduce the amount of time I spend inside that space, and it helps. The ability to forgive others and to be forgiven by others really and truly comes from the inside out.

Thank you for sharing your work with us. Can’t wait to see what else you have in store.

-Cyborg
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