Journey to Nowhere…and Fast

My story may or may not be relatable to you. If it is, I hope that you too can experience “all the feels” with me, so that we can commiserate ( that might be a little dramatic) as I make my journey and thoughts public. Should you not be in my exact situation, or anything like it, then I hope you can at least take away something; whether it be a laugh, a thought to ponder, or I’ll even take an eyebrow scowl.

So let’s get in to it. I’m currently unemployed. Cue the sympathetic pursing of the lips.

My personal journey to this point was somewhat foreseen. I am unemployed due to relocation. I moved from one end of the East Coast to another and here we are, 6 months later, still without a job. I’m sure in future posts you will be made privy to all the nitty gritty of my unemployed status as a result of relocation, but I won’t beat myself up just yet. To be fair, I spent about the first 3 months or so enjoying being back in my hometown where I grew up, spending time with family and friends that I hadn’t been able to do while living 800 miles away for 4 years. And to be honest, I really don’t feel an ounce of guilt about that and I don’t think I should. I mean let’s think about it- The Verve said it quite beautifully, “Cause it’s a bittersweet symphony this life. Try to make ends meet, you’re a slave to money then you die”. I have the rest of my life to work (and I probably will have to because my generation probably won’t see any SS -_-) so why rush back to it?

So at this point you might be thinking, how ironic- you just said why rush, but isn’t this blog a bunch of whinings about woe are you with no job? And to that I say, there may be some truth in that, but for me personally I am someone who needs to vent my frustrations, or seek feedback from others, or just simply wants to know the famous “it’s not just me, right”? Cue, the creation of this masterpiece.

There are endless topics that I want to write about. Ones that I hadn’t really considered before this time, but then again I’ve had a lot of down time in this process to think ….

Just an interesting one to start: I stopped drafting my cover letter for an application I will be submitting to start this blog. Priorities, right? No. Those are the self-deprecating thoughts I’ve experienced on this journey that make the life of an unemployed Millennial even worse. Yes, I am unemployed but no, I will not let the expectations of unemployment make me a slave to that life. And yes, I said it. I’m a Millennial. That aspect will surely come up in-depth in a future post. But back to what I was saying- punishment, criticism, obligation: these are all things that I have been putting myself through and to be honest, some days I break down.

They say:

nothing in life is free

good things come to those who wait

the path to success is paved with hard work

They are true, and perhaps the truth hurts, but damn this has been a true test for which I am discovering a new subject about every week. For instance: I should get back to finishing this application, but herein lies just one evil of unemployment- I realize this application should be my priority, but this glass of Riesling, finale of Flipping Out, and my cozy bed justttttttt might win over tonight.

To be continued…