An epiphany.

Imann
Imann
Aug 28, 2017 · 2 min read

I realized early on as a kid how quick I was to detect the slightest changes in people’s behavior and how I had a keen awareness of the attitudes and feelings of others. I feel things on a deeper level, I read people and feel the words that aren’t spoken, more than the average person I’ve realized. To say the least, I was an emotional mess growing up constantly in conflict with myself. When I think back to my adolescence I recall how often I’d feel misunderstood; hearing things like “you’re too soft” “it’s not that deep” “get over it.” I started to retreat from friends and conversations, I was essentially withdrawing from myself.

It wasn’t until recently that I decided I want to change the narrative. I don’t care if I’m too much for some to handle. I’m blessed to have this profound intuitive quality- which is sensitivity. To be able to empathize and therefore communicate deeply with others. With everyone feeling like they need to channel this tough-guy facade, it’s no wonder that this world is in dire need of compassion. I’m allowing myself to see things from unconventional perspectives, regardless of the disapproval, incorporating my intuitive nature with my open-mindedness. I’m grateful for my idealism, to be able to see the hint of good in even the worst of people. I have an inner passion that enables me to be in-tune with my emotions as well as to comprehend them. Understanding myself and my place in this world is empowering to me. For as long as I can remember, I’ve always had a habit of drifting into deep thoughts contemplating the hypothetical and philosophical ideas I have, resulting in a number of epiphanies. I am genuinely at my best when I allow myself to explore everything that I am feeling and thinking.

I truly believe you can begin to understand the human experience only when you’ve began the journey into understanding yourself first. Give yourself the permission to do so, block out the outside noises.

As much as I spent most of my 23 years of living pretending otherwise, I am unquestionably and undeniably soft and sensitive. It’s unfortunate how we’re living in a time where sensitivity is equated with weakness when this very quality breeds authenticity, empathy, humaneness. Let go of that tired notion it’s only detrimental to your own being. When you’re secure within your femininity or masculinity, you won’t feel invalidated by the opinions of others and the stereotypes that exist devaluing the quality of sensitivity. You won’t need to be unnaturally tough and unemotional. It’s human to have emotion. Allow yourself to feel.

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    Risked it all to tell the truth.