Before I dive into this post, I want you to know how incredibly hard it is to share these thoughts. I’ve written and rewritten it several times for months now. I’m terrified of the reactions from those I love the most. However, I decided that I don’t give the people in my life enough credit. I believe you will see me as the same person I’ve always been. I’m just on a different path to the same destination.

This post is vulnerable and as Brene says, I have no control over the outcome. I urge you to read this with…


I recently read an article by a young member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints in which she asks and answers, “Why am I still here?” She was very vulnerable about why she stays, and I respect that choice. However, it just proves that once again the reasons people leave are grossly misunderstood.

So, why am I not sitting in the church pew? Why am I in Utah county and not part of the predominant religious community? Why do I avert my eyes to strange looks when my shoulders are exposed? …


A few weeks ago I shared my story of stepping away from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. The vast majority of comments were kind and accepting regardless of my faith. However, myself and others who are vocal about why we leave are often asked the following questions. “Why do you feel the need to share it?” “Why can’t you leave quietly?”

Well, Elder Uchtdorf’s talk at general conference answers this question. Church leaders will share with the world why we leave by shaming us with a comparison to angry children. …


To whom it may concern:

I recently decided that my beliefs in the LDS church have changed. That’s what I decided for ME. It’s a lonely path having a major life change. For this reason, I created a YouTube channel where I can talk to people like myself. I put this on a public platform and realize that this made everything I said open to public consumption. There have been positive effects but a recent turn of events has shown me the negative side of things.

I am far removed (decades now) from living in my hometown in South Carolina…


I’ve been thinking how much different things would be now at BYU and within the homes, wards, and communities of the church if women were included in the framing of the family proclamation. How many young lives would not have been lost to suicide if a woman’s voice was involved? Sister Okazaki was very open about this in her quote below in an article for Dialogue Magazine. The last line from her quote is very telling to the state of women’s voices in the general councils. Sometimes they forget we’re there.


The first lady of Mormonism.

Growing up I always wondered about Emma Smith. She stuck with Joseph Smith, through a difficult and scary journey that ultimately led to his death. However, when the other followers of his new faith moved westward, she did not. I was taught some very vague reasons for this, reassured of her place in heaven, and the subject changed. There was always a hunger to know more.

We study all of the male leaders in our church — each modern leader getting an entire year of study — but we don’t have the words of Emma…


Emily Partridge, 19 at the time of her marriage to Joseph Smith. She lived in the home of the Smiths from the age of 16.

Polygamy has been in the back of my mind since my teenage years. It’s strange to live in 2019, and admit being concerned about the practice of a man having multiple wives. When you grow up in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons), this is something you learn about early in life. It is part of our religion’s past and future. To say polygamy bugged me is putting it lightly.

When I fell in love and married my husband, I was so confused by even the thought of sharing him with another woman. I was taught that…


Today I’m sick. I hate being sick but it gives me time to talk to you. I’ve got an important conversation that we really need to have. It has been on my mind for several days and this cold has forced me to sit down and have a tough conversation. No matter what you’re doing right now, please stop and take a moment to read this post. It’s for you, all of you.

You don’t have to accept your current status as your permanent fate.

Baby weight, stress induced cellulite, a brain that craves cookies and donuts instead of chicken…


A ground breaking research study was done in 2017 which compared all of the major diets including: high carbohydrate/low fat, ketogenic diet, high protein, intermittent fasting, and daily caloric (energy) reduction.

Is there one diet that works better than another for the majority of people?

Is losing weight as simple as calories in being lower than calories out?

Alan Aragon and others put together a large research study examining these questions in 2017. You can access the entire study here, but I’ll break it down for you into the most useful information I found from the research. …


I biked up mountains over and over that summer. I spent two hours a day, at least four days a week in the gym lifting weights. I even hiked for 12 hours to the summit of Mount Timpanogos. Yet I was at my heaviest weight ever — outside of pregnancy. I know fitness — I would even consider myself a fitness connoisseur but somehow I couldn’t keep the fat off. My diet wasn’t perfect, but I wasn’t gorging myself on fast food everyday. Something was wrong with this picture.

In my early 20’s when thin was easy.

Let’s back this story up, I’ve always been thin and honestly…

Holly Hardy

Special needs mom, anxiety survivor, personal trainer, and nutritionist trying to put it all together into one happy mess.

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