Why am I constantly making mistakes?
I am constantly messing up — constantly.
I work for a small political/public affairs firm — we do a healthy amount of business and have a small staff. In a business like this, everyone wears many hats.
For the last 3 months, I have made small, unforced, errors more and more often. I have no idea why, and it is killing my drive to work.
This frustrates me. I have concluded that I am both unhappy and comfortable in my job. I see this as a very dangerous combination.
I don’t know why this is happening. I have had success in this job — my bosses aren’t great, but they aren’t awful either. There are a few things going on in my life, but none that are significant enough to explain this current slip in my work.
This needs to change, and I know how to change it. I am afraid to move forward in a new direction.
I have an idea for a small business. I don’t want to start this business to make a million dollars or “change the world.” I want a business (and life) that allows me to work from home, make a decent income and be my own boss. I want a business that is fulfilling AND will allow me to spend some time with my family.
Is this too much to ask? The modern life cannot be one that relegates me to working 12 hours a day while my kids grow up without me. I will sometimes wake up at night and look at my phone for new emails. There have even been times where I will feel guilty for missing an email that arrived after I had gone to sleep — this is insane thinking, but I get bogged down in it.
I don’t need much to live, and I have a supportive spouse. We have a nice home, but we don’t live paycheck to paycheck. We have savings, and I know she would support me in this new venture.
So much in my personal life is going well — the work part is not. I need to make a change.
Here is where I go from here: I need to hold myself accountable. I need to do one thing every day that leads me to this goal. I have time — I don’t need to quit my job today, and doing so would be irresponsible to my wife and my family.
I owe it to them to be happy, and I need to MAKE that happen. This is how I do it.
One small thing, every day, that leads me to the goal of starting my niche business.
I will be documenting this process here as a part of holding myself accountable. What have I done recently to push myself towards this goal? How has this changed me?
One thing I suspect: once I get momentum on this, the quality of my work here will improve. We will see.
Thanks for reading.