A thousand words
It’s been way to long since I got on here and talked about my successes or set-backs on the road to finding myself again. If I’m being super honest I didn’t expect the road to be this rough. For once I’m not referring to the food and the role it has played in my life for so long. This entry is going to be a little more personal (while still being nice and vague) than usual.
Suffice it to say that my life has changed drastically in more ways than mere weight loss, and sadly not all of these changes have been greeted with open arms. I am soon to be a single mom of three kids- no longer working due to child care complications…. However there is some light at the end of the tunnel in regards to that.
Once I get the childcare taken care of I know that I can go back to the primary job I’ve held for the past 5 years. She’s extremely awesome like that- I only hope that I don’t have to keep doing this to her.
Also I finally ordered my ACE certification program and have started working towards that goal! I’m still very pumped and excited about that- I still think I would be an amazing personal trainer and I have a variety of different life experiences to dip into that make me more relatable so that’s always a plus. I wish I could say that I’m giving it my undivided attention, however situations being what they are I have not been able to.
I am learning new coping mechanisms everyday- I’m happy to report that 90% of the time those new methods revolve around moving! I’ve noticed that it’s better to stay busy, especially since my mind seems to think it needs to be busy as well. I have gone to the gym on days that I normally wouldn’t. I’ve found myself seeking out projects that are especially labor intensive so that I can work out the frustration and anger that I’m feeling at this time.
I have managed to stay hovering around 295 at this time, which I will take- again due to the circumstances. I was trying to battle the depression and anxiety on my own and I am not ashamed to admit I had to get help for that as well. I know that it’s not permanent though- and that I will continue to pursue my new goals (the certification) and continue to remember who I am- while being an awesome mom still of course!
So that old saying that goes something like- you never know what secret battles someone else is fighting….. yup. Super true. If I can hang in there during this rough time, and all the ones I’ve had before- then you can too!
Now at long last! PICTURES!!! For your comparison pleasure I give you the starting point versus the current version.