Dulo, Gitna at Simula

It’s 3 am in the morning Mahal, and i am looking at your picture dito sa phone ko and i just can’t look at it, parang sasabog yung kasiyahan ko sa puso ko just keeping this inside, and because looking at it is not enough so here i translate this feeling into words. Mahal you know what, every time na tinitingnan ko ang picture mo na ito, i can feel the bliss inside me, and it’s actually weird kasi wala akong maramdamang iba, and i cannot explain it but only extreme happiness. If magtataka ka kung bakit ganito ang title nito, kasabay ng bliss inside ay may naalala akong kanta, yung kanta sa kasal ng kaibigan mo, si Libeth. naalala ko yung emotion ng kanta but any words from the lyrics, kahit yung title hindi ko alam yet i started to type sa youtube anyway and i don’t know how it happened i dont even know why i typed the word “dulo” parang unconsciously lang, hindi ko nga inisip yung word na yun, parang kamay ko lang ang nag desisyon na i type yun, and so i typed it and the autocomplete of youtube search bar started to trigger and youtube suggested me a list and the first item is “dulo, gitna at simula” then i had this thought baka ito yun but before i enter it sabi ko naku pag tama talaga toh, then i entered the keywords, then i saw a video list ang una ay “Bawat Daan” at kahit nakita ko na ito i am still not sure kung ito nga, kasi hindi ko talaga alam yung kanta, and i am not sure who really the artist is so i played it to check, but before i checked it sabi ko, nako pag tama talaga ito, nako, then i played the video, then after a couple of second, “uhhhhhhhhh” ang galing ito nga. :’) . You know what mahal, @ my 23 years of existence dito sa earth every time i ask myself to lookup a song na hindi ko naman alam is really such a struggle to me, and this is the first time God guide me to find the song that i am looking for right away . Gene Reiz i am always good at looking forward to the future of my family and other people, i always find it not so easy for me to look forward for my own, and this is where the magic of your pictures comes in. again hindi ko alam kung paano nangyayari ito but this is an opportunity for me to image coming days being with you, dreaming to see that smile in my future, seeing you dressed like how you did in the picture every time we will going to have a special occasion, you having a background hindi na lang bahay nyo, but bahay mo na at bahay ko narin. yung bahay na kahit simple lang, na kahit medyo maraming abubot, basta sa bawat sulok nun ay katumbas ng masasayang alalang nabuo kasama ang pamilya ko. seeing you with your friends and family friends habang tinitingnan kita, helping you and the family na mag picture picture sa inyo during special moments, being with your family habang nanunuod ng mga movies na gusto ng Cale these are just few of the many things and moments that i felt na a part of me now is having the courage to think of a future for myself. Salamat for making be believe na somehow i can do it. You know how much i love you and i know how much you love me too, yet i still pray every time i could to love you more and more, to love you even at there are times that i don’t understand you, to embrace the good in the bad in you, to see the blessing and the happiness you brought in my journey.