The Guilt of Status Updates

“It felt like more of a way to one up everyone else.”

I used to update my Facebook status a lot. I liked telling people what I was up to. For all I knew, I thought they cared. While some of them probably were genuinely interested in my life, it felt like more of a way to one up everyone else.

Every time I attempt to update my status I’m overwhelmed with guilt. I start to type out what new cool thing is happening in my life, I pause and look at it thinking to myself… “Really?” A cloud of guilt forms above me as an internal battle wages war inside of me. One part of me wants to post the status update to see what everyone else thinks and the other part of me looks at the self-absorbed thinking behind the update and is repulsed by the idea.

This inevitably leads me to rarely updating my Facebook status and when I do, the majority of the time it’s a picture or a post about my son. I have become so overwhelmed with the self-driven, see-how-many-likes-I-can-get thinking that I no longer update my Facebook status. Maybe I need help. Maybe I’ll overcome it and learn how to post status updates in an unselfish way. Let’s hope so anyway, I miss telling people about my awesome life! ;-)