Today..

Which is actually yesterday’s tomorrow night (get it?), I am well. I find myself laying in bed while my daughter sleeps, listening to what I call old school hip hop (like earl-mid 2000s). Well it’s old school to me, some may argue with me that old school was in the 80s & 90s. Given that, it’s been 15 years (whoa), so in my book is classified as old school. Any who, so I’m sitting here reminiscing about my time in high school when I lived in Minnesota. I had some troubling (I mean TROUBLING) times, espcially my sophomore year, but alas, I enjoyed every moment of it. It gets me thinking as to how far my classmates & myself have come in life. We have all gone different directions, none of which I believe any of us saw coming. I’ve lost contact with many, but have regained with a few through my search on Facebook..

I consider myself “stuck in the past” to a degree. What I mean by that is, I will always hold my high school memories near & dear to me, no matter what bullshit I went through (which was my fault anyways so I can’t blame anyone but myself), but some days I still wish I was still in that time. I wish that I could go back in time to relive my days at Woodbury Senior High. It had to have been one of the best times of my life. I am I rekindled the fire between myself & my friends that I still talk to. I am so glad to see that they are doing well. Some have kids, some are married. Some are still in college working towards their degree (much like myself), some have graduated, traveled, & are doing what they love (whatever that may be).

Side Note:

I said I use a lot of quotations, I lied. I use parenthesis LOL. Moving on…

So yeah, I wish I could go back. But then again, I am enjoying my life now. I am still young (not even 25 yet), I’m healthy, I have a little family of my own. I get to create new memories with my daughter (even almost a year later, that is STILL strange to say…my daughter) & see her blossom into her own person & create her own memories. One thing that I will continuosly enstill in her is to savor every moment she has on this earth, because time will miss you. I wish someone would’ve told me that growing up. Maybe they did & I wasn’t listening. Hmm. Oops.

This song here..

This song here is I guess my “anthem” for high school, well really all my teenage years. I jam to this now like I did back then without hesitation. To me, music like this is dead. That “feel good, make you wanna dance & have FUN” vibe is gone & the “get money, f**k bitches, pop bottles, sell dope” is here to stay. I fear for our generations future, & for my baby’s generation. But I do have hope, the people I surround myself with (yes, even through Facebook) are still old school pertaining to there kids so HOPEFULLY, good parenting will catch on to others.

I feel like I just rambled the whole time, but I feel good about it. I like to ramble, its good for my soul LOL.