Separate Ways

A poem.

Not Me Alone Photography, 2017.

You say “sorry” like the

Word has the power

To make everything better

It erases the past

Eases my mind and sews

The two halves of my heart back together

They say an elephant’s

Memory is remarkable

And maybe mine is no where close

But all I know is when

I look at you I remember

Every wrong you’ve ever done me

Every time you overly criticized

Attacked and belittled me

Every time it felt like a shot through the heart

I see you and see these memories

I feel these pangs

In my chest flaring up when you speak

You twist my truths

Until they are no longer

Self-evident; unrecognizable

Our relationship was good,

Until it wasn’t

And you every day try to correct the problem

Maybe fixing it isn’t

What we need, but instead

We need to sew the seeds of separation

I need to grow,

To feel like I can finally thrive

Is all I want to know

To be myself in a world

Where all I’ve known is

That being myself isn’t good enough

Doing my best isn’t good enough

Wearing my best smile-

Nothing satisfies

I don’t want to live in a world

Where my actions are judged so harshly

But where I am loved for being me

I want a world where I can

Express my thoughts, my feelings

I have this seed, this motive I need to plant

This passion is poison

Inside of me, and with every waking moment

It longs to be free

Set out, seek out, dig and bury

Find a home where the passion can be carried

From one person to the next

Where the longing in me

Can fill another being

So others can love passionately


About the Author: My loves are Jesus Christ, rock climbing, photography, classic novels, the Nationals, Scooby-Doo, and the Killers. For more, follow me on Instagram here.

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