Exploring vulnerability, being grateful & accountable: The year 2021 in retrospect, 2020 too introspect
Writing this with a heavy heart, yet I am grateful. The last 2 years has been challenging, I am in wonderland, wondering how I can write about it, I guess I’ll have to give thanks someway yea, maybe that’s why I am writing this or maybe it’s to grieve and pour out all the pain, particularly the past year.
I’ll write bout the events of this year and maybe share a few hints of the previous year. The names mentioned here are last names (save for Samuel as he bears the same last name with someone else & Karo because his surname is like a first name) of the people who have one way or another been a blessing to me this past year, it’s my way of showing gratitude.
As I begin, I will say that some awful things happened to me this past year, so brace yourself:
I got robbed twice, almost losing my life on both occasions (I am writing this just a day after the 2nd);
I had a motor accident which at the time, cost me a lot (I still haven’t paid back all of what I owe for that accident);
Lost a lot of my savings on different investments (one I have written off as EFCC picked up the CEO of the organization for fraud, the other I hope is recoverable as no be only my money dey inside);
I experienced symptoms of Covid and had to isolate for over a month while being treated;
I lost one of my mentors, Pst. Aluevbose (this one hurt so much I still don’t know how to express it);
My current job has consistently owed not just me, but all staff at least a month’s pay (my own pass this one by far) since the 2nd quarter of the year (we never even see anything for December, who knows, we just might get paid before the year ends, miracles do happen yea).
It has been quite an eventful year honestly!
Despite all these, I am grateful, first for life, for family, for old & new friends especially people I will like to keep doing/living life with.
Sometime in March of this year, my friend Nwankiti pulled an IJGB on us, I met Chiarelli and Suarez, we spent quite a good bit of about 2 weeks together, in the company of Odunmuyiwa and it was amazing, maybe the most memorable period of the year. I also met Chukwueweniwe whom I am glad crossed my path in this journey called life, I have learned a lot in the short 9 months of knowing you, you are the ambitious person I need to keep mine afloat. I also met Akamike sometime in September around the most trying time of my entire life, you’ve comforted me the little way you can, always being there when I seem not to be there for myself, thank you so much for all you do. That’s for the new.
For the old, I’ll like to thank one of my mentors, Samuel, he talked me into investing in myself at the end of the previous year, linked me up with two people who would take me on 2 different courses (project management & data analysis course, which are my strengths), if not for the challenges of the year, I can bet you I would have completed more, thank you. I will also like to thank Rev Alabi, he helped give me that push I needed to get out of my comfort zone and into reality, I honestly appreciate it, as I now know how important it is to be uncomfortable to move forward in life, thank you.
Nwankiti, Adebanjo, Odunmuyiwa, Mayaki, Samson, Chukwuka, Igwe, Ogunsanya, Karo, Teluwo, Nwachukwu, you guys have been there for me through it all, especially the past year, I cannot thank you enough for listening, advising, being my strength, the ones I run to when I need aid, especially financial, the shoulder I lean on whenever I need it. I still plan to repay all you have done in whatever way I can, there’s so much love from me to you guys, I swar.
To my colleagues (old and new), Agha & Oladimeji for the opportunity to prove myself in a new challenging role, Salami & Engurube for the support at my old role, Oseni, Oladele, Ola-ade, Ajayi, Nwagbara, Atenaga, Young, Oyegoke, Amoo, Ajiniran, Chimere, Atori, Adesida, Oderemi, Ojotu, etc, for helping me grow and taking all my BS on the job (some of you on this list are supposed to be on the friend list, but we would leave it for another tale).
My mother, we have been doing this thing called life together for years I can and cannot remember, no one hurts you more than I do, I promise this will change as I am going to be intentional about it, thank you for your love, prayers, admonishment, food, care, taking all my BS when no one else would, the list is endless, especially when I don’t deserve it, I cannot thank you enough.
The Zein’s, y’all have been amazing, looking out for me even when I don’t do half as much, thank you.
Although the year has been challenging, I achieved a few of my goals this year:
I completed 2 courses, changed roles at my place of work (which I am loving, save for the no-pay part), I exercised for 11 of the 12 months of the year (the previous year I only did for 3 months), might not seem like much, but I am grateful to be able to tick them as done.
Now, how to end this, oh yes! Accountability, it’s a new year for me (sorry to those of you still in 2021, mo ti mooove). This year I plan to achieve the following: (PS: I am a Nigerian who would not share his plan to the letter with the world, make dem no put my matter for head, I still dey learn this vulnerability thing biko)
Earn at least double what I do currently (I have a list of how to make this happen and I am giving myself the first quarter of the year), PS: the Nigerian in me stopped me from sharing, deal with it.
Create at least another stream of income by the end of the year (Chukwueweniwe is already on my neck for this one)
Add another workout regimen to what I currently do (I am thinking muscle building as I no get body at all), PS: this one is for the ladies
Do a lot more with family (reach-out often, hopefully with the better pay, I will also be able to take better care of them as well)
Continue my current plans with Nwankiti (don’t ask him, he will not share either)
Write more (this means read more, read 1 book a month)
Make better decisions by way of commitment (to God & smaller simple tasks)
I will be accountable by sharing a monthly review/update on the above via this channel (medium). Anyone who would like to take up the task of being my accountant (doesn’t sound right but oh well, you know what I mean), please reach out, I will appreciate it.