“I don’t know, it’s like I’m doing what I care about but I still deal with the same day to day issues I would be if I was living a normal life,” my sister explained in a slightly defeated tone. I tried my best to uplift her spirit and while doing so, ended up stirring a shared revelation.“I know, I don’t know how long I should live this corporate lifestyle, my flame is receding everyday too it seems. I want to be free and creative like you’re able to be.” A classic case of wanting what you don’t have.

Natalie deciding to embark on this journey to find her meaning in life, to change from the complacent trail many believe will lead to success and happiness, still wasn't able to find her emotional middle ground. I too have the same issue, only on the other side of the road. I broke my own path, managing to land a comfortable position with no college degree, obtain a stable income,and yet I too felt I am underachieving.

What I have found out after this day is that humans needs are extensive and far too often sit right beyond our reach. Natalie wanted to feel more stability, and I wanted more insecurity. I felt the want to be out of my element and grow more, while she needed to be reassured and stop spreading her emotions thin.

She wanted what I had, and I wanted what she had. This is life, this is the wave.

Life constantly tries to break our focus with a yearning for what we don’t have. Its not so much that we aren't appreciative of the privilege we were given, but that our emotions dictate what we look for, which is an equilibrium hard to maintain.

That day on the phone both of us realized how badly we needed to just speak with someone that had a similar mental battle, but from an opposite angle. Life is a back and forth, an up and down, a balance that we all wish we controlled in full. You feel one way today,and another tomorrow, changing more dramatically in the younger years. It’s this instability that keeps us occupied as life goes on, these uninsured moments and unknown occurrences that force us to grow everyday. Some call it String Theory,1's and 0's,and for some life’s oscillations.

With Natalie age 22 and I age 20, we continue to help stabilize each other while riding the wave. More then likely you too have your ups and downs.Just remember to appreciate the wave before it smooths out and runs into shore. This is life, this is why we live, this is the wave.