My hope is that cultivating more of an ongoing practice and relationship with accountability will help me become a stronger friend, accomplice, community member, etc. My hope is that by laying this groundwork of integrated accountability I am setting myself up to be more readily able to respond quickly and openly to situations that ask for accountability, and to end up in fewer situations that need it retroactively. If we are to build the forms of strong community with one another that these times are demanding of us, then we will need strong bonds that can hold conflict, difference and deep, deep love. I believe cultivating more engaged accountability is a vital part of building that form of lasting community. I know, as many of us do, the deep guilt and shame that comes with being unaccountable and the ripple of distress it puts on communities. I desire for myself, and for all, that we may instead move more and more towards experiences of quiet fulfillment that comes from being in engaged accountable relationship with ourselves and our communities.