Ignoring talking about alcoholism for a second, I want to talk about what it’s like to be open and strong willed. I quit school when I was 15 and it wasn’t any kind of long thought process. It just happened one day and I never went back. But that didn’t stop me from making a successful career for myself. I’ve worked for some of the biggest brands in the world like Boeing, Mercedes Benz and Disney to name just a few. I have been very fortunate and blessed to have had those experiences. I can only honestly say it’s because I’ve been strong willed. Sure I am a soft and quiet guy a lot of time, but when it comes down to it I strongly go for what I want to do. Being open about anything comes as second nature to me. Of course I have many private things I would never divulge but, to me it’s important to be open.
So how does alcohol play into it? Well to be honest I think that I made some wrong desicions when I chose who my life partner would be. I should have been smarter. There are a lot of small details for why it didn't work out in the end but a big part of my alcoholism is regret that I didn't end it sooner. And this isn't fair on her either.
She is a good person. She has her faults but we all do. I don't know how to explain why we weren't great together but it's just how it is. She is still my friend and we had many good times together and I'm very glad that my dogs are in her care. I feel guilty for how badly she took it when I said I had to leave but it was the best choice and she also knows that too.
She was my best friend for a long time and we now remain as friends.
Being open and honest about all of my failures has been the best thing I’ve ever done and I recommend it to everyone.