The Lauren Southern Video and why I’m losing my mind a bit
Hey guys, it’s been ages since I’ve used Medium but I thought that now is a good a time as any to write a post about what’s been going on lately.
I’ll be the first to say it’s been no secret that the past week hasn’t been very great for me. I’ve been suffering a lot for a load of other reasons I’m not going to get into too much now, but rather then getting better like they usually have, they’ve worsened.
You may have noticed that my new I look at on Lauren Southern has been hit pretty hard in the dislikes and genuinely nasty comments. I’ve had 4 days of people telling me in all manner of ways to kill myself and picking on fellow comments just because they liked the video.
I produced a video the day after saying it put me down a bit because it felt like people weren’t taking the video as it was meant to be taken (an opinion) and instead used as a vehicle for attack because the video opened with “Heads up: I don’t like Lauren Southern”.
In fact retention dropped significantly after I spoke those words.
I think it’s amazing in 2017 that the internet is as cultured in parts as cavemen where we have to attack anything because it’s alien to our concept of normal.
Some long time commenters told me they liked and enjoyed Lauren’s content and could understand my viewpoint which is entirely the message I was going for, but some people were employing the SJW tactics I said I disagree with to attack me!
While I knew that it was the unpopular opinion from looking at Jack Conte’s video’s ratings alone, the amount of bile just because I felt passionate about a topic and wanted to add my views to a conversation is staggering
I since privated the video and created and deleted tweets regarding the topic because I’m alternating every day between someone who wants to make videos because it’s what I really care about and feeling that Lauren Southern is some sort of Demi-god who is untouchable and woe betide anyone who has an opinion that is less then stellar on her (or at least the past days have seemed this way)
I’ve been alternating so hard and having major moodswings that it’s fucked up my head big time. I’m low all the time right now and I feel like it may take some time to recover.
I’ve been getting angry at people I consider friends, not wanting to get out of bed in the mornings, hiding from my problems and it’s getting more and more worse. I had a full meltdown on Wednesday last week and i’ve not really bounced back.
I don’t think the Lauren Southern video caused it, I think it was one of the nails in the coffin and unfortunately for me I had to have a view that was going to be picked on, Maybe my naivety thought it was going to be ok.
I still really like the I look at Lauren Southern episode. I thought it was really well produced and conveyed my attention well. If anything I felt I should have fleshed it out a little but working with the time constraints I felt I did the best job I could.
Where do I go from here, I do not know right now. I do feel like a break is needed from YouTube for a bit, My health comes first always and I do feel like I need to write a lot more and get content worked on that I’ve been ignoring. I will be moving away from the toxic side of YouTube for a bit and you may find I’m less active on Twitter for the next week or 2.
I’ve got Shoot Edit Upload part 2 that needs filming done and production as well as all the writing and production for TNVP*
In regards to the Lauren Southern Episode, I will be keeping it up. I’d never just delete my work I’m proud of and hate aside I’m proud of it. You may find that if hate comments still continue I will turn off comments for a bit as it’s the last thing I want to be reminded of whilst focussing on moving past it.
Once again you guys have shown me how much I really matter to you and I cannot put into words how grateful that makes me feel. It’s for you guys I bust my ass producing content.
I’ll get there, slowly but surely. Thanks for believing in me ❤
