A Letter to the Woman who becomes “The One”
Dear The One,
Off lately I have been tormented by life’s worst moments picking myself up every time I feel sad or depressed or just alone. I want..to..feel..loved again.I want that spark to light up again which is at the moment just dead in the cold wind. For the past 3 months I have been all to myself. There were friends yes. But none come closer to who you will be once I meet you. They say once you meet the woman of your dreams you become the happiest and luckiest guy alive. I believed so once and I want to come clean by saying I did love a woman once upon a time. She was my favorite person until she left me for trying to balance her and my career. She did not want to understand. Period. She did not want part of it. All she saw was her desires & expectations not getting fulfilled whereas I did not have any and was in for the “Spice of Life” being surprised. I miss being with someone. Someone who cares for me. I fear sometimes whether she will be my last. I fear…
Even with the gym, work & college (final semester of MBA) I still feel there is something missing. Something only a person can fill in. I still pray for her and to God that I find that someone. Not looking everyday & hoping for her but just to come up one day.
I sometimes refrain from talking to attractive women because I don’t quite know whether I should get into it or not. I’ve been hurt before. Being alone after someone leaving you is hard. Especially harder if the person doesn’t even want to see your face. It hurts. It definitely does. Even though people say you have to ‘MOVE ON’. I took a person’s advice by surrounding myself with positive people. At times it helps. At times it doesn’t. But I pull through the day. I tell myself when the time is right. She will come. But I don’t hope otherwise I would be disappointed day by day hoping.
To the Woman who becomes “The One”
I’m a simple guy, honest, patient, kind, caring and understanding & an Arien. I work hard to make something of myself so that when I’m financially settled, I can take care of that one more person who comes into my life. I’m a voracious reader and I love to self improve. I read non-fiction. I’m a bassist in a band called NevaeH. I sing too and I’m an occasional vocalist in the shower and out of the shower.
I love motivating people. Love helping them. I’m a cat & a bit of a dog lover. I don’t like to show off or wear expensive stuff to show status. Not a person who blows up money except on books, books & books. I would enjoy a good time with some Karaoke singing & bringing you to sing on stage. Would absolutely love to have a walk by the park talking & laughing. Making time for you would be of immense happiness as I would get to be with you. They say guys should not show pain or things that trouble them. It just shows that you’re weak and not capable of anything. NO. I believe now that if I do open up it would just make us stronger and better at understanding each other. Guys too have feelings but we don’t show it that easily. We fear it’ll make us vulnerable.
I would love to travel the globe with you, stay at places so that we’re close together. Eat delicious food, work and support each other, get married & raise a few kids someday. Grow old and still love you the way I did when we first saw each other and locked glazes. I would want you to understand me as I understand you. Nothing in this world would make me happy than to see you happy and smiling. I don’t mean to sound melodramatic or fantasize about fairy tales because when we meet it would be magical for us both. God would see us and be happy himself.
Lastly, don’t judge this post as a “get a life” post. Its just some of my thoughts and nothing else.