What do I need friends for? I don’t know. I can’t even think of a reason.

Why do I not make friends? Indifference.

But then why am I trying to be nice to people? Because I want adoration, love and acceptance. I want those feelings, but I don’t want the people that come with it.

I am scared. Because they will leave me. They will judge and laugh. They will take advantage of my heart. So I keep it hidden.

That’s not true. You are amazing. You have a kind heart and that’s a gift. Your ability to understand people, to listen and connect with people, to love another is what allows you to be so powerful. I can influence people. I can motivate them. I can bring them up.

But lets be honest your heart is volatile and it could use some strengthening. Learning how to use this thing, it’s challenging because it’s so big and powerful. But eventually this thing will come down and I will yield this thing called my real self.