You are blessed. That’s what you are.
You have been blessed to have culturally infused genes, and a genetic makeup that is dismissive of race.
You know why?
Because there is no such thing as race.
Racialization, inherently makes no sense. You are a byproduct of multicultural attributes that contribute to the persistence of what is profoundly a singularity — the human race.
Even cultures are nothing but borrowed hand me downs from other neighboring or cross culturing exercises — cultural diffusion. Human migrations prove this, no matter how hard they try to erase or misinterpret history. This is the essence of human persistence.
There is nothing corny about this. Our persistence is interdependent on others and our evolution is dependent on it.
There is no such thing as a discrete individual. This is a fiction. The boundaries of ‘me’ are fluid and blurred. We are all profoundly linked in countless ways we can hardly perceive. My decisions, choices, actions are inspired and motivated by others to no small extent.”
Unfortunately, the people you have come into contact with are uninformed, or for lack of better term, misinformed. Some of us have learned things incorrectly via oppression, marginalization, and other types of social constructs stemming from tribalism — manipulation and control. Some are privileged in sustaining it to their own benefit and security while others are resistant to such marginalizing and debasement, effectively taking up defensive posturing to an absurd offensive.
All are varying attributes of dehumanization. Unfortunately, many have learned about their very own human existence from a tribalistic and/or identity politics formulation. This has severely stunted our cognitive evolution. Based on what you have written, clearly, people have been affected by the scourge of dehumanization and its ramifications.
I empathize with your plight and cognitive dissonance over who you are but I am hoping that this provides some perspective that is unbiased and dispassionate for contemplation.
I am from Jamaican and East Indian background. There very well could be more cultural variations in my gene pool but the “out of many, one people” motto is how I grew up and so it was when I was schooled in the states that I realized how much the color of my skin would have impact on my life or would not matter, rather in America and in other parts of the world.
Once again consider yourself a blessed human being that was not borne out of tribalism but out of multiculturalism and the cultivation of the human spirit.
Peace and One Love