I paid bills online (My favorite way of paying them. I am eternally grateful to the Lord for having been born in a time where I can pay bills while lying in bed, these luxuries are not to be taken for granted) and I must say, it is a painfully satisfying process.
I guess its satisfying to be capable of paying. You feel like this responsible human, empowered and capable of caring for yourself properly and ON time (at least that’s how I feel after I click “pay”, HAHA). But of course, there is that pain of losing money to various payment gateways and watching your bank account simply deduct “hard work” off your account without a care in the world.
But what’s interesting for me is seeing the due dates for these bills.
I always delay paying just a bit after staring at them, mentally arguing with myself that technically I could pay tomorrow or another week after that and still pay on time and be responsible, so why should I go through the stress of paying it now?
Why are we like this? The principle is pretty straight forward, you don’t delay if you can do something in full capacity right away. But yet we struggle when we know we can push the deadline a little further. What is it in my brain that even makes time for thoughts of delaying things? I don’t really have an answer for this, maybe somebody does and I just haven’t read it yet.
It’s really in our nature to delay things! In the bible even, Proverbs 3:28 says:
Do not say to your neighbor, “Go, and come again, tomorrow I will give it” — when you have it with you.
I think it goes the same for writing consistently. There’s always another day to work out, a later hour where you can write, another minute before you have to answer a friend…And it’s not healthy to push it back at all when you’re more than capable of dealing with something right then and there.
I’m trying to be more aware of this, and to make sure I don’t have too many delays, big or small in my life. Writing about this now is a good reminder for myself to make sure I stay away from delay.