Behind a busy buzzing schedule, I hide.

Behind appearing as confident and cool, I hide.

Behind either a toothy grin or a tight-lipped smile, I hide.

Behind mutters of the words “I’m fine”, I hide.

Behind gales of laughter, I hide.

Behind a seemingly happy demeanor, I hide.

Behind lies and pretenses, I hide.

Behind these walls and defenses, I hide.

Because they will never understand.

Because they can never comprehend.

Because they will think I’m being shallow,

That in my own miseries I wallow.

Because even if I explain,

They can never understand my pain.

So I would rather deal with this alone,

And keep everything bottled deep inside.

And so I hide.