Behind a busy buzzing schedule, I hide.
Behind appearing as confident and cool, I hide.
Behind either a toothy grin or a tight-lipped smile, I hide.
Behind mutters of the words “I’m fine”, I hide.
Behind gales of laughter, I hide.
Behind a seemingly happy demeanor, I hide.
Behind lies and pretenses, I hide.
Behind these walls and defenses, I hide.
Because they will never understand.
Because they can never comprehend.
Because they will think I’m being shallow,
That in my own miseries I wallow.
Because even if I explain,
They can never understand my pain.
So I would rather deal with this alone,
And keep everything bottled deep inside.
And so I hide.