forms of longing (five songs #4)
First thing you learn is that you’ve always got to wait.
Without gratification, there is no desire. But desire also requires that gratification be unlikely, perhaps impossible.
Or maybe it requires anxiety: as soon as we imagine wanting something, we imagine ourselves already having failed to get it. The possibility of inching toward that imagined failure, the possibility that all our present actions are getting us closer to that imagined failure, and not to our desire: this, maybe, is the root of anxiety.