To Whom It May Concern,
To whom it may concern,
Over the past couple of months, I’ve gone through a lot; a lot of stress, success, dedication, hard work and happiness. But, I still feel that I have a greater amount of all those qualities left in me that I’ve yet too reach in my field of work. I still feel I’m not reaching my full ability in all those aspects of my life. People always tell me, “Ryan, don’t grow up too quick”, “Live, be 19.” There’s something about those things people are telling me that just doesn’t click. I want to do it NOW. I wanna amount to heights that most other 19 year olds have yet to mentally grasp.
This age for me, and probably for most of you at 19 is the most difficult in life; It’s the age of truly finding out who YOU are, finding out what YOU are.
I often ask myself many questions on a daily basis that make me dive into these philosophical mindsets. Why do I wanna grow up so fast? Skip 19-20 & be in my twenties with a career doing what I love. Why do I feel there’s something incredibly exciting which will amount from all this hard work and dedication I put into everything. Why do I wanna grow up so fast?
I feel like I haven’t been myself lately, or haven’t felt right; maybe that’s exactly what growing up feels like; the struggle, the responsibility, budgeting, tasks brought upon me that provoke a different way of thinking about the world. I have a beautiful woman in my life right now that I like and really want it to bloom into something great & magical; I want to spend more time with her and get to know her even more than I do now so that we’re able to grow together. I really feel like I’m at a point in my life where I need that. I really do. I’m happy. Also, I want to spend a lot more time with my best friend, a time to connect and make an even stronger bond with him as a person. He’s a man who I look up to and feed off his creative ingenious ways of creating art. A man who I will always love, who I will always cherish his friendship with a great deal of respect. He will always be my best friend.
I have a lot of things in my life at the moment that I want to work out for me, therefore I strive to work hard and do everything possible to make it all happen for me & my family. I want to be great. I want to become a better man. I want to become a better son. I want to become a better brother. I want to continue to grow physically and emotionally, expanding the magnitude of my true human ability. I want to be irreplaceable. I want to be Me, whoever that is. I want to make ingenious, creative, and very thought provoking films which showcase my vision as an artist. Ultimately, writing themselves into history.
With all that said, I feel my time on social media sites need a break to achieve everything I’ve mentioned above. Yes, social media may not have any disruptions in these goals, but it’s a personal choice; Twitter knows Ryan Butler, not Ryan. Personally, Twitter has become very redundant these past couple of months. But trust me, you’ll see me doing something big in 2014. I’m going to work on a lot of writing, a lot of film projects & finish up school so I can graduate and get my diploma; begin to find out more about myself. I appreciate all the love on my short films that I love to write and direct for you to watch. “It’s only goodbye for a little while” (Whoever gets that reference, cheers.) A goodnight to all, and to all a goodnight.