A CLEAN SLATE?
Oh Danna, thank you ! I think we must start over. I believe we can get along just fine, you sound like what I call buena gente — good folks!
I have picked up bits and pieces of threads about someone whose presence on Medium causes a lot of grief to a lot of people . I am mystified… and curious. Weary too. I seem to have been lucky so far .
I have discovered Medium not long ago, last winter ,while in India of all places, at a very difficult time in my life. I though then I had discovered it by accident. But I know better — everything happens for a reason . It was exactly what I needed then — a lifeline. I started writing like crazy — a veritable flood … also something I waited for so long and just did not know how, HOW, shall I ever start writing?And so it happened : A big loss; me, a shipwreck . Cut off , in the storm, no mercy, no light . . No land in sight, let alone a harbor … Then, Medium entered my life: It meant I had found a compass and a paddle ( as different from being up the proverbial creek WITHOUT a paddle, hihi) I am cracking a joke , but actually this all is very serious and I do not even know why I am suddenly feeling so free to tell you all this… What I am getting at is that I met some wonderful people that I really feel connected to. There is a lot of resonance in many ways . Also the connection is so pure — disembodied — soul to soul , bam! a beeline! I do not know how they look , how old , what color, what gender etc. — and I do not really care , because I feel them, I feel love and I believe it goes both ways. With some more than with others, but it is good and it feels real to me. And I am so inspired . And I have so many stories to tell … I am getting a great feedback — what I had missed all these years …
The point: I am not here to play . I am not here to hurt anybody . I am here because I am saving my life here. I think this is where I was heading to, for too many years now. I am here to stay — as long as … I don’t know, but I know that I care. There Danna , I spilled it! Straight, fair and square. I don’t mind a snap, a pinch, a discussion, I can take a joke . But I am here with the best I have to offer. I am here to care and to love and to listen . And to tell. A lot. Things I have never told yet. Slowly. As it comes. Finally, I am no the enemy. I think I need a hug now. A virtual , it’s ok.
