Gluing Back Broken Glass

Learning to trust again is so hard; trust in someone, trusting that not everyone will hurt you, trust that everything will be okay and that you’ll get to have your happiness without it being taken away.

It has to be learned again. It’s like an obsessive compulsive who gets up twenty times in the middle of the night to check if their doors are locked. You’re constantly checking on yourself and not how you feel about this or that, telling yourself to calm down and that its nothing. You’re always on guard, afraid to let anything slip by because the last time you ignored the signs you were met with a big disappointment.

It’s bad because sometimes you discredit people when you think they’ll be dumb enough to cheat on you, or be that easily swayed that they’ll fall for someone else or that they won’t be there for you. It’s unhealthy, you know it and you can’t help it most of the time.

What you need to know is, it is a different person, you were hurt by someone else in the past but they are not the same person. Stop comparing them to the last, you’re not doing the one you love any justice.

Trust that if they were a cheater that they would’ve done it early on or the signs would be obvious enough. Trust that if they were easily tempted that they’re actually not in love with you. Trust that yes, you deserve this happiness, you don’t deserve to same hurt happening to you again. Just try to let it go, little by little and make sure they’re doing their part too.