Day 7: The Infinite Playlist of my Life
May tatlong bibeh akong nakita .. mataba, mataba, mga bibeh. Ngunit ang matakaw sa likod ay iisa, siyang cute na nangangalan na iya. :P
Alright, so a playlist depicting the major events of my life, huh? Well, this would be pretty difficult since I love a lot of songs that really delivers the message. Plus, nothing much really major happens to me. You know, the life changing moments and personality setting opportunities and life obstacles. Boy, my life is the most boring thing.
That moment when you realize you are probably the least interesting person in the universe. (That is because God is not done yet writing my story. He really wants it to be epic. He kinda told me the other night .. a wink wink)
But I might as well share what I got..
1. Isn’t She Lovely by Stevie Wonder
“Isn’t she lovely
Isn’t she wonderful
Isn’t she precious
Less than one minute old
I never thought through love we’d be
Making one as lovely as she
But isn’t she lovely made from love”
First major event of my life: I was born. Well, that’s got to happen or there wouldn’t be any other song in this playlist, insert chuckle.
2. Wag Ka Nang Umiyak ni KZ Tandingan
“Wag ka nang umiyak, mahaba man ang araw
Uuwi ka sa yakap ko
Wag mo nang damdamin kung wala ako sayong tabi
Iiwan ko ang puso ko sa yo”
The next major event would be when I started grade school.
Funny story, i loved going to school when i was in kindergarten and prepatory but when I finally got in first grade, I wished school didn’t existed. I remember every time my mom drops me to school and she would bring me to my classroom, we would have MMK moments. Like, one time, I didn’t want her to leave yet and I wanted her to wait for me outside until school ends but she can’t do that because she’s pregnant at the time with my younger brother and school hours are longer.
When she brought me to my classroom, I hugged her so she wouldn’t go away and I was crying like a little sissy while my mom tries to remove my grip off and my teacher was pulling me away from her and all my classmates were watching. It was so embarassing, they probably thought i was crazy or something.
Time passed and I stopped doing that because I finally adapted to my situation. I would pretend that my throat hurts or my stomach aches. I say it was pretty effective because every child knows that when your sick, momma’s gonna rush over in a blink of an eye.
It’s a pretty major event of my life because I think that it set my personality of making sure that things go my way. Not in a bad way of course. I really don’t like attention on me, so what I do is that I let others realize my idea rather than actually saying the idea which is stupid because I could’ve just said it myself. I know, ang gulo.
3. Youth by Troye Sivan
My youth is yours
Trippin’ on skies, sippin’ waterfalls
My youth is yours”
High school. Ugh, the most excruciating part of your life where you get yourself exposed to what the world has to offer. The time of innocence where you just want to know and experience everything. There’s all that and then there’s puberty. For short, the craziest four years of my life.
New school, new friends, new teachers, and socially awkward me. The first two years went pretty smooth. I got good grades and some great friends. Nothing much really happened then, like I said I’m the most boring person you’ll ever meet. So if this bores you, i’m not blaming you for leaving.
4. Steady my Heart by Kari Jobe
“Wish it could be easy
Why is life so messy?
Why is pain a part of us?
There are days I feel like
Nothing ever goes right
Sometimes it just hurts so much”
Second half of my high school years was the worst. The only good part was being included in the honors list.
I lost friends in this last two, got depressed, I got social anxiety, I hated people, I hated everything, like I said, the worst. I think I even went a little mental. Long story short, I hated high school. Nothing more nothing less. If I had the chance to go back in time, I wouldn’t. I wouldn’t have met the best people now if I did.
5. Chosen Generation by Chris Tomlin
“Come on, sing, we are
We are a chosen generation
Rise up, holy nation”
I got accepted in AiTech.
College, I’m in college. I always thought that if high school was already worst, college would probably the end of the world for me. Boy, was I wrong.
This major event in my life is hands down the best thing that has ever happened to me. It was such a good opporunity. I’m a scholar, I got the best friends I could ever ask for, I think Im not that depressed anymore, but I still have that social anxiety.
The really best part though? I met Jesus.
6. Christ is Enough by Hillsong
“I have decided to follow Jesus
No turning back
No turning back
The cross before me
The world behind me
No turning back
No turning back”
Me and my friends attended Rizal Youth Fest. It’s like a praise and worship but more kind of a concert, something like that. This song left a mark on my whole being. I changed so much. My outlook, my point of view, my opinions, my attitude, and my faith towards God. It became stronger.
This song, this major, major event of my life, is the turning point of everything. This is the best thing that has ever happened and the best decision that I have ever made. It wasn’t an accident that I was there. It was all part of the Lord’s plan, and I can never be more honored to be a part of it. This is the part of my life that I have decided that I will live my life for Him because there is only Him and in Him we are saved and we are loved.
And that concludes the playlist of my life but not really. So much more is still in store for us. So much more. There will be more turning points and more life changing moments. It’s not the end yet, heck, it’s just the freaking beginning.