To me, your statement actually shows that at the present time you are not ok with changing your name. This is fine! Sure, you could be, you might be, but as it stands, you aren’t.
The issue lies within your disclaimer at the end of the sentence, “…if that was the natural order of things.”
The thing is, Jake, no such natural order actually exists. Status quo is not the same thing as natural order and it’s vital we not confuse the two. (See: every civil rights movement ever.)