Awkward Autism and My Writing
When I write an essay, I pour out my thoughts.
When my thoughts are done, I stop.
Sometimes that happens before I have a proper conclusion.
Ok, most times it happens.
So once I run out of my thoughts, I then pause to examine any loose ends. I also check to see if there could be any misinterpretations (I’m sure I still miss a ton).
I then try to give things a heavy dose of reality. Like if I notice an essay is too positive, I put it in context.
The same if an essay is too heavy. I’ll also try to bring it back to the middle in some capacity.
Other times, I have no idea in hell how to conclude an essay.
All I have is an abrupt ending.
I could just leave it at that and embrace by abruptness, but I dislike it when other authors do that. It feels like a cliff hanger and I’m left with a sinking feeling. I don’t want others to feel that way.
This ties to many other contradictions in my autistic self. Where I want things a certain way, but I don’t provide those things to others either.
I’ve written about it many times, such as in my essay about my hypocritical eye for detail.
