Is it better to be safe than sorry?

My teacher sent me a blog today which completely made me understood the whole dilemma we humans face. She stated;

’Your Soul is never going to think to itself: “Life is good. We’re just going to keep doing what we’re doing for the next forty years or so. I don’t want to experience myself any differently than this’

This is the whole point about life I want to understand. I always want to move forward, I have great ideas and I just cannot wait to get them implemented. I did this my whole life. Bored with living in The Hague, I moved back to Zeeland, because it was the most interesting part of the Netherlands. Bored with this I moved to Brussels, to Amsterdam, to St.Vincent, to Miami and to Indianapolis.

I don’t do this because I enjoy the restlessness of moving. Money, or the lack thereof never held me back. Most people wait until they are financially secure to take vacations, go on sabbatical or buy a second home in Florida. I never did. I lived my life to the fullest, always expanding.

Now I feel I am in a financial rut because I did not move. So I am contemplating my situation. Why? I am at a point where I have experienced everything there is to know about solitude, understanding my own spirit and its workings and developing my painting style. I have been a professional artist for five years, but, I want to expand to an ever greater way of living, because my soul is craving for it.

When my teacher asked me, “What is your soul craving for?” I said “To meet another soul that wants to be with me”. I have never been in close contact with another soul to the point of merging. I want to experience this. How do I go about it? It is not about dating somebody and having sex and staying together forever after. I want more than physical contact, building a home, a life and understanding each other’s preferences. I already experienced this. I have learned it’s not about moving to a geographically different place.

The ego really only answers questions about what it already knows. The ego wants to stay in a status quo because that is safe, even if this is uncomfortable. Can you imagine? The safest way from the cradle to the grave is what most people sign up for. The ego is always holding us back from our potential. The duality of life is constantly between the comfort-seeking ego and the adventurous soul.

If we do not make a conscious choice ourselves, our circumstances do it for us, because the soul does not like being trapped by the ego. Soulful living is about following your gut, even if it is scary and unusual.