In Defense of Not Knowing

11 months ago I graduated from college. The next day I packed my car and drove to Colorado. Since that day, I’ve lived in three different states, four different cities, and five different houses. I’ve worked four different jobs and changed my mind about what I wanted the next year of my life to look like about 138 times. Four days ago I turned 23 and I still have no idea where I’m heading.

It can be (and has been) really hard to live such an inconsistent life, but there are also days that I feel so free because of the fact that I haven’t settled on a five-year plan (or really even much of a one-year plan). I get to live every day, and not have to worry about how it’s going to ruin my plan. I get to keep changing my mind about what I want to get out of life without feeling like I’m derailing my future. I get to explore loads of different lives I could be living without fear of never knowing.

I might never know what I want to do, but the truth is that I get to wake up and spend every day in the Lord’s plan for my life, whether that means working at a desk, taking a trip to Colorado to make a video, running a stable for a summer or something else entirely. The Lord never asks us to know what the rest of our life is going to look like. That’s for him to know.

If you just celebrated a birthday like me and you’re still unsure about what you want your life to look like, take some solace in the fact that the Father knows exactly where you’re going.