Thank you for sharing your story and asking others to share theirs.
I spotted throughout my pregnancy. Apparently this is pretty normal. But one day (8 weeks in), I bled more than usual, so I scheduled an appointment with my OBGYN. She did an ultrasound, we heard a heartbeat, and all was well. I was told to “take it easy”. But after followup questions, what the doctor really meant was bed rest, because she didn’t even want me to walk home (.5) miles.
2 hours later, I miscarried. The pain caused me to fall on my way to the couch from the bathroom. The pain came in waves, and later I found out it was contractions. I couldn’t speak coherently to my husband, so he just watched as I writhed. I was in a lot of pain, but was too scared to take advil because it increases the chance of miscarriage, etc. etc. And then a lot of blood came out.
The next day, I went back to the OBGYN. She confirmed there was no fetus. But because there was still fetal tissue, she prescribed drugs that induce abortions. So for the next week, I continued to expel blood and tissue. And while I could take advil again, the pain would wake me up at night.
It’s been over a year since the miscarriage. It’s not something that I can forget, but day by day it gets easier.
Ashley, if you ever want to normalize and give voice to other taboo topics, please consider talking about infertility.