When You Give Yourself An Excuse Path, You’ll Probably Take It

I made no forward movement on the personal project today. I’m arriving at a couple conclusions with all this. By “all this” I mean my #tinychallenges.

  • #tinychallenges No.1: 3 words (the one we’re doing on the podcast)
  • #tinychallenges No.2: 5 minutes of personal project work per day
  • #tinychallenges No.3: Daily journal of personal project status

See what I did there?

I over-complicated it. I couldn’t do just ONE tiny challenge. I got hungry to do more, and push myself more and I complicated it. Somehow, my daily journal seems to have created a safety net in my brain for it being OK if I miss a day of personal project writing even though the personal project work is only asking for 5 minutes of my time. Knowing I can talk here, later about whether I did or did not do the work gives me an option. I’m starting to feel like that has defeated the purpose of the personal project. I also think it’s partially because I don’t like working on things I don’t feel like I can share or talk about. I like sharing what I’m doing. I learn from it openly and there’s this great bonus of when you folks who actually read these — READ and share your thoughts and feedback — it’s awesome! So I’m feeling a bit like I need to keep stuff right out in the open and DO. Ups, downs, fails, wins, whatever. Keep doing and sharing. This journal is sort-of that, but it’s a layer removed from the actual THING. And that’s causing an oddity in my rhythm. It feels off.

Here’s what’s good, though: I’m writing every day. Here, if not also elsewhere. I LOVE that. When I started doing my #tinychallenges initially, I picked a thing that I was excited to leaarn/try/do/share. The daily journals feel a little unfocused, and perhaps where this entire post comes from. I’m frustrated that I’m not staying more focused on my little personal project, but I am enjoying the journaling even when I feel like I don’t have much to talk about. There’s a learning experience here. For me, anyway. It’s OK to realize you bit off more than you can chew. I may need to find another path to completion, but I will keep on going.

A lot of thinking out loud here. Curious — Did you set out on any paths, goals, resolutions or anything like that when January started? Anyone ever run into stuff like this? How is it all going?

Have you listened to #tinychallenges — the show yet?
Season 1 — Episode 1 is only 16 minutes long, give it a listen on iTunes:https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/tinychallenges/id1071581340
or check out our website at tinychallenges.com

This is day 07 of my #tinychallenges daily journal. tinychallenges.com

Jaimee Newberry is a professional experimenter, the independent mother of two girls and two cats, and girlfriend of a beautiful, shy man who likes to remain mostly anonymous. Learn more at jaimeejaimee.com